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August 2009
January 2010
April 2010
July 2010

now that i've realised i cant even TALK!

i dont have my voice now.

it always happen when i cough / sick.
ugh! so sickening.

even when im sick in school
i have to face those who are angry, sad and mad at me.
"SOME" ppl ignored me.
i wished i wasnt sick.
because when ur sick, u suffer more.
i really hope my life ends right NOW.
i wish i could just die of heart attack or wadever shit.
this world is lifeless now.
no one is smiling.
no one is laughing.
those who are sad just wanders away.
and those who are "sick" doesnt wanna live.

i wish i could have the courage i had last time.
opening the window,
stepping out to the roof,

however, as i looked down,
i was scared.
i couldnt die at this instant.

my mum called my name,
i had to get back to the room and lock the window.
just gave her an ugly smile.

i feel so DEAD rite now.

GOD LET ME DIE.
IM SUFFERING WAY TOO MUCH OF THIS.
JUST TAKE ME AWAY.
I DONT MIND EVEN IF I END UP IN
"HELL"

I JUST WANNA DIE.


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